Moments

Here’s another really interesting link-up!  It’s called Just Write hosted by Heather at the Extraordinary Ordinary.  I want to say that you should stop by her site.  If you feel lost, her blog just might help you find yourself.  Check her out.  Start in her About section and read a small part of her story.  Here’s my link-up post for Just Write.

“I’m leaving on a jet plane.  Don’t know when I’ll be back again….”  Funny how that song fits me so very well right now.  I’m leaving my children.  My husband for four days to go out east and visit my sister and her family.  It should be a fun trip for me.  But I feel like that song.  Melancholy.  I feel like I’m leaving and I don’t want to.  I’m leaving my family and I won’t be here to love on them and protect them.  I might miss something big.  I might miss something little.  I will miss something.  I’ll miss them.  I’ll miss their voices; their smiles.  I know there will be sad moments and I won’t be here to comfort them.  I’ll miss this tiny four day section of their lives and it makes me sad.

On the other hand.  I’m headed to see my sister whom I haven’t seen since last summer.  I am really excited because I haven’t seen Little Rachel in eight months and boy has she changed!  She won’t even remember me now.  I’ll get a chance to meet and talk to my sister-in-law.  I’ve only seen her once and she didn’t speak then.  I’ll get to see the whole crew!  I’ve never held Evelyn.  I haven’t seen Mattie J. since he was one month old.  He’s 2 now!  They are all changing and I am so excited to be able to go and see them and share this part of their lives.  Even though it’s just this little tiny few days of their huge amazing lives.  I get to be there though and see them when they go to bed and when they wake-up.  I will get to cook for them and clean up after them and hug their little bodies and kiss their little faces.  I will have the chance to share a moment of their time.

I know to a lot of people this might all feel overly dramatic but, as i’ve talked about here before, it isn’t for me.  I could loose one of those amazingly wonderful people at any moment.  She has a terrible cancer that has already claimed the past two years of her life for itself.  We can all feel that we don’t have much time left.  Every one of those moments are precious.  We won’t ever be able to get those moments back.  And so I am sad that I am missing some of those priceless, unretrievable moments with my own children but I am so tremendously grateful for the moments I will be getting with some of the other people in my life.  I cling to all of the moments.  I am so busy trying to grab as many of them as I can and hold them tightly.

 

2 thoughts on “Moments

  1. I too have a sister and I love to visit her. Have a great time. I usually freak out when I’m getting ready to leave the kids. But once I’m gone (if I know they are with someone I trust) I’m almost embarrassed how little I think of them. I so enjoy my break. But am thrilled to come home and see them.

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