Waiting For Peace

I’m sitting here this morning through phone calls and text messages waiting….  I’m waiting for that message that my beautiful niece has finally reached the peace that only comes from being in the arms of her Heavenly Father.  A lot of people think I’m terrible; that I’ve given up hope.  I haven’t.  I know that one day very soon she will be completely healed.  Her pain will be gone.  She has fought a good fight and we have been blessed with more time than we thought possible.  Now it’s time to let her go and find her peace.  It’s time for that wonderful girl to be free again, to dance and sing and laugh.  It’s time to surround her with our love.

I wish I could be there to hold her hand and stroke the few strands of hair she has left from her forehead.  I wish I had been able to show her the photos I took of her on my last visit, how beautiful she looked.  I wish I could kiss her cheek one more time and tell her how blessed I have been to have her in my life and how much I am going to miss her.

I have peace because I know in my heart that we’ll be together again one day, she and I.  I know that one day I’ll hug her and laugh with her and kiss her forehead.  We’ll catch-up on everything and we’ll never have to be apart again.  When I fix her hair and paint her nails it’ll be just for fun then.  Not like the last time.  Trying to hide the scars.  Trying to brighten her spirits.

I am so happy for her that this horrible fight is almost over but I am so very sad for those of us left here on this earth that will have to go on without her.  For those of us that will miss the sound of her voice or that simple text message “Hi.  What are you doing?”

She has been so very brave, covering her fears and sadness as best she could so that others wouldn’t be hurt.  Never asking us to give her what she needed.  Always putting others first.  Even in the planning for her death she tried to spare the feelings of her family as best she could.

So to my beautiful niece, You are awesome and wonderful and I am praying continuously that you find peace in the arms of our Heavenly Father very soon, my dear and I will see you there one day.